Madonna is the queen of re-invention,right? So maybe I need to take a few cues from her? I’m not talking about running to Frederick’s of Hollywood and buying myself some sexy lingerie cone bra and writhing onstage somewhere, but I am trying to figure out who I really am and at this point in my life, who I REALLY want to be.
Of course this is all a result of having too much time to think. I have been unemployed/laid off since Thanksgiving, granted I have two kids and a boyfriend that run me pretty hard. (Could also be a result of what I have not revealed to most as a VERY traumatic 35th birthday causing all of this introspection.) But recently, I have been thinking, “Who am I now?” I am not that naive 22 year-old excited, eager, broken hearted, hard-working, fresh college grad looking for her first job, living with mom and dad. I am now a 35 year-old mother of two, living with her boyfriend, with 13 years of working under my belt and more life experience than you can shake a stick at. I have had the job I LOVE and inspired me, I have had my first corporate gig, I have been promoted to a job that gave me more satisfaction and more pain that I couldn’t be more thankful for, and I have had that job that I had to do to take care of my family. Most importantly, since 2001 I have had the most important job, one that I will always have and will beat out any other job or career, while it won’t pay the rent, it overflows my heart (being a mom to my two beautiful monkeys a.k.a. children).
So, in essence, I have re-invented myself, not on purpose, just by living my life. I have been so many things, and I am realizing that there are so many other things I want to become. So Madonna, mother of re-invention, I will be thinking of you, as I do laundry, dishes and cleaning, I will think, “What would Madonna do?” You know, she’s a mother too!…
Stay tuned for updates!
